Mar 27th, 2007
suddenly
I keep wondering…when was the really exact time I did be close to someone very dear…and still I have no idea…
Things happen without I d ever noticed it…
Suddenly I had someone to share some same problems…to share thoughts of life with…
Suddenly I skipped some late evening meet up with some close friends so that I can spend some time with him…(ridicilous, to some point…)
But dear friends, I am still the same, or maybe I thought I am. I know some real close friends wont agree with me…hehe..but please don’t have bigger ambitions than me…no, I am not doing the same mistakes again…(how I wish…)He certainly is not for me…we might stay only as friends, but sometimes, dear, I wish for more…but after all, the friendship is always winning the first place (after family)…I treasure our friendship more than anything else…
It was easy with him…(as with anyone else before)…but whatever, I won’t hope for more…but people say, don’t give up dreaming…but he said to me; sometimes people wish for something they already have…(at this point sometimes I wanted him to realize that I am always by his side…yep, I know it’s a bit over acting…haha)…
Hmm…I won’t be over with this matters…let it go with the flow…
shrl once said “love means letting go…if it comes back, it yours”…but to me…love is always there…mine or not…(no friends, i’m over him already, really!)
hmmm…whatever, those who understand, will understand..
