Masih juga terfikir
Kalau diri jadi terpinggir
Oleh dia yang selalunya hadir
Dalam senang ataupun getir
Akankah dapat hati menahan
Rasa duka yang pasti terbeban
Kuatkah kaki terus berjalan
Akan kelamkah nanti laluan
Hati yang kecil selalu berharap
Moga harapan tidak kan ranap
Membuat jiwa menjadi penat
Andai harapan berkecai lenyap
Kiranya aku selalu menganggap
Bahawa aku ini orangnya kuat
Walau hati selalu bergolak
Kukuatkan hati kusuntik semangat
Moga hari-hari yang pasti
Membawa bahagia datang kembali
Membangkitkan lagi hati naluri
Menarik nafas, bangkit berdiri.
It was stated that I have to stay back as the session will not be adjourned until 9.30 pm. I’ve had a good seat, near the exit door, labelled, K.P.M. And it’s now 5 to 8 pm. And guess what, I was threw out from the seat. I gave up the house too.
It was other’s turn to roll up whatever now, to answers all the issues that had been arose up before. And since ours was done at 4 o’clock, they wanted the seat just for their officers. Whadehel.
So, now I am sitting on a comfortable sofa, with the big flat screen, and yet, like the seats in the house are still not enough, they wanted to conquer here too. Whadehel again. i don’t care, I am not giving up this sofa, okay. Not unless abang mail the r3 come and fetch me. Heh.
Kadang-kadang
Tak semua yang kita nak
Kita dapat
Kadang-kadang
Yang kita dapat
Tak semua yang kita suka
Kadang-kadang
Tak semua yang kita suka
Suka kat kita
Jadi
Bersyukurlah atas apa yang kita ada
Terimalah hakikat
Hiduplah.
Dengan apa yang kita ada
Berusahalah
Semoga kita dapat yang kita nak
Antara hidup dan mati
Perjalanan kita masih boleh diubah
Dirancang
Dilakukan
Tapi takdir tetap di tangan Tuhan
Kerana Dia lebih tahu
Apa yang terbaik untuk kita
Hari tu saya ada buat permohonan dekat bos, saya nak minta dia memperakui permohonan saya nak pergi berkursus. Tahun depan, Januari, 2 minggu.
Tapi dia tak bagi. Dia takut kerja saya tak siap. Saya memang kecewa. Saya baru nak mohon, bukan maksudnya saya dapat terus. Tapi dia tak benarkan saya memohon pun! Zalim la jugak kan.
Terus saya demotivated. Geram dan bosan. Negatif gila masa tu.
Sekarang. Kerja saya ala ala okay la. Takde rushing macam kerja kawan2 yang lain. Though still I have the dateline. Dan minggu depan, saya ada kursus. Saya dah bagitau bos saya pasal kursus ni, dari minggu lepas, dan saya dah konfirmkan kepergian saya ke kursus ni kepada urusetia.
Masalahnya sekarang. Bos saya sakit pulak. Bercuti. Dah 2 hari. Saya risau kalau dia masuk kerja nanti dan mahukan saya berada di ofis minggu depan. Untuk buat kerja di depan mata dia. Sebab dia dah tak ada di ofis 2 hari dalam minggu ni. Oh, mungkin dah 3 hari. (Hari Isnin I was on leave).
Saya risau. Dah tiba masa untuk saya berehat sekejap di tempat lain. Mungkin.
Doakan saya dapat pergi kursus ni. Kalau tak, mungkin saya blacklist bos saya. Haha. Black list macam mana pun, he’s still the boss.
Rasa kecewa juga
Mungkin ada yang perasan
Perasan akan perubahan
Cepat sangat terasa
Senyum tetap senyum
Gelak, tawa masih terhambur
Tapi dalam hati
Tahu. Macam menipu diri sendiri
Sedih
Pedih
Kecewa
Tersedar
Syukur juga
Masih belum lewat
Kalau mahu melangkah semula
Percaya ceria masih ada
Tak mahu ada
Rasa benci
Biar hati rasa dilukai
Tabahkan diri, yakin hati kuat lagi
Too much of me post lately. I wrote all about me. But today, I want to tell a story.
Not so much of a story pun. 
Actually I am going to see Ina, my former roomate of the first rumah bujang. Ina baru je melahirkan seorang baby. I am sure, baby tu mesti kiut. Sebab mak and ayah dia cute. (Terpuji azra pulak kat sini)
Ina got married to one of my good friends. Azra is a kind guy. That’s why I’d like him to get to know Ina more. Aku lah yang pass kan number phone Ina kepada Azra. Hehe.
So, tahniah to them. Tak sabar nak jumpa Ira and Sufi [juga dah pregnant sekarang ni] They are all my former housemates.
Really miss them. 
Had quite a good time for myself this weekend. Went to some shopping with housemate on Friday evening. Brought Jiji to her first major service on Saturday, cost me up to RM200++, spent almost 3 hours waiting. It’s almost a year since I first drove Jiji. Hehe.
A ggod friend dropped by on Friday afternoon, after having a meeting with my big-big boss. We went for a tea tea after office hours. Chat, talk, gossip and whatever for a couple hours… It’s been so long since we last really sit and talk. Appreciate that.
Saturday evening, spent some time with more good friends. It was a happy meet up. Glad so many friends could make it. Thanks to the organizers. Thanks also to friends who brought something to add up to our selected dishes. Hehe.
Sunday, went to a kenduri [again] with some colleagues. Not really some. Konvoi up to 15 cars, I’d say. Anyway, it was Azy who did the driving. Kak Zah and I were talking and singing along to the songs. Haha.
Spent well!
It’s a year. I’m gonna be broke this month. There’s an insurance to pay! Yak a au! Jiji……
